Lourdes Sanchez untitled xviii, 2012 SANCH018 pencil & ink, 30 x 22 inches (via Lourdes Sanchez | untitled xviii | Sears Peyton Gallery)
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This is my film that I’ve been working on for three months. In the process of the post-production, I felt the challenge to differentiate my film from the work I see being made amongst my peers. To truly take my film an experience rather than just something that’s simply aesthetically pleasing; I wanted to stand out, basically.
But what I found the most pleasure out of, during the making of this film, was the opportunity to tell the story of my friend Riccardo (actor in film). In class he would share his experiences while overseas in Iraq and Afghanistan, and while listening him explain what happened to him, I was always disturbed and fascinated by how frank he was with the things he witnessed. To this day, it blows my mind how someone like him—who still severely suffers from the trauma that fighting overseas caused him—can be such a loving individual. The balance that he consistently has to have, between being a normal civilian and someone who can be called back at any given moment, was something I wanted to portray on screen. In addition, I began to think about the the way in which African-American soldiers go about defending their country. The double-edged sword of knowing in the back of your head, while you’re out there performing your duty, that it may be all for nothing because you’ll, hopefully, be returning to a country that does not truly appreciate you as an individual. While knowing this, there are so many, that despite being well aware of the injustice they face, continue to put their lives on the line.
At no point throughout this film are my own political stances displayed. Rather, I wanted to focus on the psyche of an individual who actually lives with this dilemma on his mind. Through image and sound, I chose to visualize the mood that someone in his position is constantly under. An attempt at the visceral. Through the stories he shared with me, all extremely personal, I wanted to replicate the purgatory someone in his position seems unable to ever escape.
Play it loud and thanks for watching.
“I would like to say something about how I feel in general about what a novel, or any story, ought to be. It’s a quotation from Kafka. He said, ‘A book ought to be an ax to break up the frozen sea within us.’”